Feeling so happy today! Because, I finally don’t have to turn up at the Science Park after about 5 consecutive weekends! I mean, I can finally differentiate weekends from weekdays, I can finally have some proper time to do laundry, to rest, to breathe, to experience life as a human being..

The past 5 weeks have been the toughest I probably have experienced in my life thus far! Every morning is like waking up from a grave, as I dragged myself to a cemetery. Every day was like sinking deeper into hell. I thought I’ve experienced hell, and not any more until I started life at F X Benxxxxx!Thank God for the team, thank God for the freedom I had, thank God that in spite of all these, I survived, I fought the fight, not a too good one though, but at least I’ve finished the part 1 race, while part 2 will continue 2 weeks later after my training.I wanted to transfer to FIDS partly because of this job, and I so wanted to get myself out of this shit, so much so that I impressed the manager, the director and the partner so much that they offered me a place, all because of desperation and suffocation, although in the end I rejected the once-in-a-lifetime offer. How stupid? Maybe.

The fire in me turned cold. The enthusiasm turned into numbness, and the swiftness turned into deadness. Every day I prayed for it to end, but my prayer fell on deaf ears. Whatever it is, it’s over!