A moment of anguish, let down, disappointment and betrayal...

When I touched down on 4 August 2007, Curtiz called me and discouraged me from joining SU. He said it's a messed up and screwed up place. In fact, he encouraged me to run for president in CAC. I thought about it for 3 days and replied him on 7 August 2007. "I'm glad to return to CAC. Maybe we should meet tonight?" After multiple cancellations, we finally met for about 45min in CAC room on 15 August 2007. He told me that another person is also running for the same post, as such, he would need to listen to the vision of both parties and finally decide who should run for the election that very night. The call never came until I enquired on 17 August 2007, midnight.

'Hi, wil let both of you run n haf a fair comp.. Wil get my election comm to send u e nomination form'-Curtiz, 17 August 2007, 0037hr

'Hi dennis. I m adeline the chairman of the cac election committee. Can I have ur email so tat i can forward u the nomination form?-'Adeline, 17 August 2007, 0125hr

'Pls check ur mail for the nomination form. Can u meet me together with ur proposer and seconder to hand in the form betw 1.30pm to 2.30pm? Or any time after 4.30pm? Pls confirm wat time will b better for u. Thks!'-Adeline, 17 August 2007, 0131hr

'Hi dennis. I m sorry to inform u tat it will no longer be necessary for u to hand in the nomination form. In accordance to the constitution, the nominee for the president post will need the support of at least two-third of the current exco. Unfortunately, i have just been informed tat more than two-third of the current exco are against ur nomination. In this situtation, ur nomination cannot b accepted.' -Adeline, 17 August 2007, 1409hr

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Throughout all these, Curtiz who encouraged me to run for president didn't dare to call me to explain the situation. Instead, Adeline was instructed to tell me that my nomination cannot be accepted because there was a last minute ex-co meeting to veto me out! Wow, I didn't know that so many people can't wait to get me out. Then why ask me in in the first place? Everything happened on 17 August morning.

So, there's such a constitution! Hmmm.. So was the veto session conducted in a fair and square manner? Where was the minutes and who were present? If only 3 were present and 2 voted against me, is that a valid vote? Or did the rest of the 16th ex-co appointed proxy? How amazing can that be to resort to such an unethical, unscrupulous and unjust method to rid me out? If this happened in SU or anywhere else, I won't be surprise. But apparently, this took place on home ground, CAC, recipient of Nanyang Award for team work. Truly, such great esprit de corp displayed to veto me out!

I thank God in all these, because I don't have any friend like Curtiz. If I had, I would have torn my robe, put on my sackcloth, declare a 30 days fast, apply ashes on my face and begin to mourn with great sorrow... I thank God that such a person does not exist in my life. If I mix around with eagles, I become like one. If I mix around with turkeys, I become one. A person with no character and integrity won't go too far in life. I'm not sure if your conscience is seared, so much so that you can still sleep in peace at night, so much so that you can still walk with your head up in NTU, so much so that you still dare to look straight into my eyes without shivers running down your spine, so much so that you have no guilt or shame when you reflect on what hurt you have caused on an innocent life...

I was sincere, how about you? Because of you, I missed my application for INSTEP, I didn't run for SU, nor did I and never will I step into CAC. Because of you, I learn to be a man whose promises made are binding to him, who honors his words, who walks with even greater integrity and ultimately, proven character.

Don't worry, before you even knew it, your sins have forgiven you. I thought you would have a peaceful exit after a turbulent term of office. Nonetheless, a vicious cycle has begun, it might not end, it could not end. Because if the committee is formed by killing, stealing and destroying, the committee will continue with the same values and ideology, and these will be magnified and glorified.

SU or CAC? I choose an abundant life radiating with overflowing love, joy, peace, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness...

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